The memory that never was

You know, you didn’t ever really have to love me
No no no
Now no one will ever love me now...
I’ve fallen and I can’t get up again
I never want to leave your side
This is so absurd
I’ve seen it and scoffed a million times
But you...
You came around, and changed me
Why oh why?
Now, I don’t know what to do....
To do...
I just sit and think of you....
Of you....
I can’t get you out my head
Not to work, or play
You’re just always there
At the front of my mind
Just, there
Looking beautiful as always
Oh how I love you...
Why does it have to feel like this?
Why can’t I be ok...
Ok...
Why are you so...
You...?
I stop for no reason on my walks
Just to think of you...
Think and smile...
And nothing I do can ever change that...
I know nothing about you
How do you love someone you don’t know?
I don’t know
But I love you...so much
You...you complete me
I only ever want to feel you near me
Just feel
A breath, a touch, and I’m yours forever
I see you when I look out in front 
I see you when I close my eyes
I always see you...just you
Oh that I could understand...
This love
Explain it to me, please
I only wanted someone to play...
You...
You were not what I expected
Not what I wanted
No
You......
You’re everything I want, could want, and ever wanted...
I just have one request
One answer is all I seek
In this universe of questions
Tell me this...
Please...
Who are you?


[December 18th 2009]