The 'accident'

Lights are everywhere

Flashing by so quickly

Nothing seems to matter

I just cannot see

The tears are salty

Burning

Pointless

The surge excites me

Faster and faster

The breeze is so cool

And calming

It whips around my face

And I close my eyes

The sadness

It seems to have won

I want to slow down

I know that I’m being selfish

That there will be many consequences

But fuck it

No one cared before

No one will care now

They will care tomorrow

But not now

Now is mine

Now I am alone

The sounds rush past

The volume on full

Faster!

I don’t notice, but my feet are no longer on the pedals

Suddenly!

I open my eyes

I am no longer angry

I am so sorry

I’m so sorry for being sorry

I can’t control it anymore

I’m in the air

Turning over and over and over

I try to hold on

I can’t

I gasp

The pain

The fear

The regret

The tree

The night comes to a stop

And all is quiet

[28th May 2007]